I think I’d mentioned that I have to take Tamoxifen, a hormone blocker, for the next 5 years, to help keep the cancer from coming back. They had told me that there would be side effects, including most of the symptoms of menopause, without the ‘pause’. What they didn’t tell me was that I would end up with one of the more rare side effects, depression. For the first 3 weeks or so, I cried about every day, several times a day. It doesn’t take much to set me off even now, but at first all you really had to do was say hello, and the waterworks would start. It was embarrassing, and a bit exhausting. At an appointment with my oncologist, I asked about this, and she said yes, that’s a rare side effect, and we need to deal with it, because it can, in some cases, go as far as to make one suicidal. Yay. We took a look at the anti-depressant my GP had me on, Wellbutrin, and the oncologist thought that perhaps that wouldn’t be strong enough. I took her recommendations to the GP, and they are switching me to Effexor. Right now, I’m in transition, taking Wellbutrin one day and Effexor the next two days, and so on, and eventually (in about another week or so), I’ll be only on Effexor. I can already tell the difference between the two. I feel much better on the Effexor days than the Wellbutrin days. At some level, just knowing that it’s a side effect of the Tamoxifen and not *just* me going crazy helps.
The hot flashes are coming more frequently and regularly, also. I’m looking at that as a good thing, in December. Maybe it’ll keep my heating bills lower…
Also, I just realized the other day that I haven’t had a period since I started the Tamoxifen, so maybe I *will* get the ‘pause’, after all. One can only hope…