Words have meaning, and the way you say them also has meaning. I just came from exchanging a pair of shoes I bought Saturday. As we were processing the exchange, the cashier asked me, “Would you like to donate a dollar to breast cancer?” I answered, “No I would not. Breast cancer gets nothing from me. I gave breast cancer my boobs, and that’s all it gets.”
Women Finding Beauty in Tragedy: p-ink.org
So, after talking to a tattoo artist, it seems that the design I wanted for nipple tattoos is a bit too intricate for the size I want. I’ve gone back to the drawing board and created something simpler. I haven’t had them done yet, because I haven’t had the money yet. However, a friend shared the above article with me today, and I’m intrigued enough to have emailed p-ink.org to see whether they might have any events happening close enough that I could get to one. In any case, it’s a very cool thing to do, and I wish them much success!
The research continues into what is available and what has been done in the area of alternative nipple tattoos. This site (http://www.whitetigertattoo.com/medical/other.html) is one that does excellent work, and is providing me a bit of inspiration. Sadly, they are not in my area. I hope to talk to some more local artists and see if any of them have any expertise in this area.
I did design something that I rather like (see pictures above), just in case I decide to do alternative tattoos, but I’m not sure if it’s too bright. I’ve never had any sort of tattoos, so anything (other than just darkening the “areola” area will be different from what I’m used to. Of course, all of this depends on getting the doctor’s blessing (and the money)…
Your Bra May Be Killing You?
I have plenty of reasons for wanting to boycott Komen, but this one is more scientific and less me not liking their way of doing business…
I have an appointment on the 20th with my plastic surgeon, to discuss having nipple tattoos, among other things. It’s been 3 months since my last visit to him, and at the last one I told him I’d want to see photos of his work to help me make my decision. Most of the redness from the last surgery is gone, and my “nipples” are closer to the same color as the rest of my skin. Eight months after the original surgery, I’ve almost forgotten what my breasts originally looked like. I know the new ones are smaller and perkier (in that they ride higher on my chest than the old ones). They’re still pretty well numb, except for some phantom feelings. At least I assume it’s phantom feeling. They’ll feel itchy, but when I go to scratch, it feels like I’m scratching someone else’s body. The right one, texturally, feels pretty much like a “real” breast, but the left one, the side from which I had so many lymph nodes removed, is still very edemic, hard and swollen and…thick, for lack of a better word. I know from looking at photos of other cancer survivors that I am exceedingly lucky to have such a great surgeon. My breasts look way better than most of the photos I’ve seen, even some who had implants. But, I can’t decide what to do about the nipples.
I had a bit of a notion to have tattoos done, but not the ones from the surgeon–from a tattoo parlor. Celtic knots, or hearts, or something. I’m not certain I’m really That Girl, though. I think part of my indecision is from loneliness. I just ended a “friendship” with an old friend who seemed to want to be more than friends, but all of a sudden decided that his alcoholic, coke-using, abusive ex-girlfriend was a better choice than me. I had all sorts of imaginings going on about him; one being that he might help me decide what to do about the tattoos.
Anyway, here I am, trying to suss this thing out. I’m probably stressing over it a bit more than I should, but those things are FOREVER, dammit. Anybody else going through, or been through, the same dilemma? I’d love to hear your thoughts…